I still can’t believe that we are celebrating one plus year of parenthood. It is a year of events and a year of moments, a year when untold blessings poured into our lives.
Here is how this story commenced and then things unfolded one after another.
1. APPREHENSIVE OR NOT?
Every notable life event brings a tinch of apprehension along with excitements, be it first job, first emergency duty, marriage or decision of having a baby.
We dwell on imaginary ‘what ifs’. It’s typical of a human. But what works best is to pin our faith on and go with flow of life. Path gets unclogged itself.
2. SINCE THAT DAY
Last year on one fine morning of September, when world was on locked down mode, a little baby girl unlocked all our good fortune. Since then we are living a real life video on fast forward mode. And it still continues.
When I held this new life for the very first time, I could sense something died and then reborn inside me. At once I became a different person.
Suddenly she is heart of all my attention. Her milestones appeared more vital than my milestones in life.
3. RUNNING AFTER TIME
Days rolled by one after another. Vicious cycle of night-time insomnia and day-time tiredness continued. Yes, life has altered.
It is now customary to finish routine activities in minutes. Some days I can’t recollect whether I combed my hair. Self-care took a back seat when wheels of life accelerated at fastest speed ever.
From decoding her broken words to citing rhymes to her and then tolerating all her tantrums, day simply flies away in minutes.
To sum up, motherhood is a 24*7 duty. And when baby is feeling a bit peaky, then it seems like an emergency duty.
But once those half grown teeth grin, fatigue fades away.
4. AS SHE GROWS
When I held her for the first time, I always knew one day she will outgrow my hands. But ‘time’ like a gush of wind will turn pages of ‘life’ so fast, that I didn’t realise then.
Looking at her is just like looking into a mirror. Watching her grow is same as revisiting my childhood through a time machine.
Her first smile, first word, first step, basically each developmental milestone is treasurable. All these moments are tattooed inside my mind with indelible ink.
5. PARENTAL CONCERNS
Being a mother, the thought that she didn’t eat properly today, occupies 90% of my brain. Now I realise why my mother always grills whether I had food or not.
My husband and I share parenting. It’s like partaking in rest other post marital responsibilities. I can overtly see the joy of fatherhood on his face whenever he does even a little bit of something for her.
Most amusing part is, earlier when I saw kids, I used to think I would never pamper and spoil my child. But as she is growing up I feel more and more like pampering her. I wish I could live by all her demands.
They say parents take along their dreams through their children. But for us, we are looking forward to shoulder all her dreams and make them our own.
6. PAEDIATRICIAN OR MOTHER?
I have confronted both paediatrician’s and mother’s life so far. After becoming a mother, now I can relate more to those petty doubts of parents. Those doubts which I otherwise would have assumed to be silly.
To wind up :
Now I am in dilemma whether I should be happy or upset with her growing up so quickly.
Anyway one thing is for sure that parent-hood is a life long learning. It’s never complete and never enough.
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